iamatie

I watch you through the bars, I started with patience. I stayed and waited, Never pressed, never rushed. I watched you through the bars, I waited for years. One day I realised, you couldn't see me waiting there.

Will it still feel the same? If we get closer, will you make demands of me? If I put my trust in you, will you loose it? Will we still be the same, when this is all over? Change has never been a friend of mine. You tell me not to fear it, change is good. Change means progress, adulthood. But I don't want to grow up just yet. I don't want the weight of the world on my shoulders. Can't we just stay young, for a little longer. Play in the sand, twirl in the streets. Forget what they say, it doesn't matter. They want us to grow up so quickly, I don't think it's right. Just stay here with me, a little longer. Hol

      This need to move travels through my veins. I can't stop the itching in my bones, the feeling telling me to get out. It's a hunger, and it tears through me like nothing I've ever felt before, these past few years have been un-natural, trapped in a place I don't belong. My wanderlust screaming at me to leave, to travel, to explore. Yet I'm stuck, stuck here waiting to grow, waiting for the opportunities that never arise.  Trapped listening to protests that I'm too young, the soul is never too young to travel. It's unnatural to cage the soul, the soul is not meant to lie still, waiting-always waiting but never taking action. It physically

Sitting here trying to feel pretty. You say you’re over me as you hold my hand. You say you hate me as you kiss me under a star lit sky. I wonder what’s going on. I’m confused now Alone. Now. You’re gone. But you’re there, outside my window smiling. What is going on.

So we had a couple fights, So we had a few drinks. So I’m standing on top of a fifty story building. So what? You’re leaving me. It’s over. You’re leaving me. We’re through. Run out of things to say, Run out of reasons to cry. I don’t know what to do with myself. That last remark it cut me deep. I’m still bleeding, Looking over the edge. I’m still bleeding Looking over the ledge. Eyes closed, arms wide. And now I’m falling, I’m falling fast. Like I fell for you. But this pain won’t last.

Isn’t someone missing me? I know you don’t even know my name. Though I’d die for you. I know you don’t know who I am. Though I cry for you. I bleed for you. Please, Please believe me. I’m in trouble, Barely conscious. Barley breathing. Please, Please someone save me. Though you forgot me long ago, I’m still waiting. All alone. Isn’t some one missing me? Am I that invisible? Am I that replaceable? No one’s noticed that I’m gone. Though you forgot me long ago, I’m still waiting, Barley conscious Barley breathing. I’m in trouble All alone.

She has you under a spell And I think you like it. I thought you were better than that. I thought you were stronger. You’re just like the rest, I thought you’d be the one, never mind. I’ll keep searching For someone stronger. When I find him He will stop. He won’t get caught in her web. I’m sad to have lost you But it’s all for a cause. It proves you’re unfaithful. It proves you’re too human. Caught up in her ethereal beauty. It’s only skin deep I hope you know… What I expected? I’m not sure. I guess I’ll keep searching. For something more.

I never wanted to be that girl. You don’t understand the affect you’ve had on me. You think it’s simple, It’s really not. I’m sorry that it went this far. I never meant to be like this. This wasn’t what I wanted. I suppose it’s too late to change it now. Too late to stop what we have started. It doesn’t help that I have to see the way you look at her. So much adoration in your eyes. I’ve told you all the things she does. But you don’t care, I can see it in your soul. She’s beautiful, You can’t see past that. So you’re not who I thought you were. They told me y

You say you love me for who I am, but do you really know me? You say you want me heart and soul, but that's impossible. For I have no heart, nor do I have a soul. I'm cold and I'm empty inside. So I use you to fill me up, you protect me, From what, you don't really know. You deserve much better. You deserve someone whole, But me that's all you want. An empty shell, with empty eyes. A heart that's already been broken.

There's so much to do, So much to see, and I'm just standing still. People pass, They look at me, I wonder what they think they see.